I have some exciting news that I have been holding in! A while back I finally ignored my fears and reached out to a local videographer. This is something I have dreamt of doing for a while now. I honestly just felt too afraid, and didn’t really know where to start.
I told him what I was looking for and he went from there. I wanted a fun family intro + a trailer for my new channel. It was nothing at all like I expected! It was like meeting with an old friend, and the kids had so much fun too. They each wanted him to film them doing something they enjoy which made it so personable.
Here’s the full trailer.
When I received the finished products I probably watched them a thousand times. It was so fun seeing it all put together on video. However, in between that time so much was going on in the world. There were constant debates on social media, and headlines that left me feeling so drained. My anxiety was through the roof, and I had to unplug for a while.
It felt like I had lost my passion to create.
I stopped writing, and just felt weighed down by everything in the world. It took a while to find my voice again, but it felt so good to jump back in. That’s not to say I stopped speaking up, and doing the work. I just had to take a break and learned I had to protect my peace. I’ve learned not everything deserves a response, and creating boundaries on social media is so important.
With that being said I’m happy to say I’ve found that spark of passion again. I remembered why I started in the first place. A long time ago when I decided to make my instagram public I had no idea how freeing it would be for me. I’ve connected with so many amazing women in all walks and stages of life. The connections and messages I receive encourage me so much. Blogging on here and instagram has been a huge outlet for me. I’ve honestly enjoyed being open about motherhood, mental health, and life.
I’ve felt led for a while now to start a YouTube channel just to vlog real life stuff. I enjoy putting videos together, and want to share more on motherhood. I fought back and forth with feeling like I was horrible on camera, and wouldn’t be good at it. Yet in the back of my mind I could not stop thinking about it. Then one day on Pinterest I found a quote that changed everything:
“If it’s both terrifying and amazing then you should definitely pursue it.” — Erada
That was the push I needed! I don’t want to look back and regret never starting something I couldn’t stop thinking about just because I didn’t feel good enough.
My husband spent countless hours with me doing research on video cameras. He took multiple trips to Best Buy, until I found the right one that worked for me. The videographer even gave me a thorough run down on using my new camera. I know it’s going to take a lot of practice, but I’m honestly just excited to get started!
When I finally shared the videos on social media, it felt like a breath of fresh air sharing it with the world. I was met with so much encouragement, which meant a lot to me.
It’s exhilarating and humbling putting yourself out there. But it’s also hard, sharing your heart and passions at the same time, leaving others to pick it apart. I received one negative comment saying how horrible the trailer was, and that they would never watch my channel. It stung at first, but my content is not for everyone and that’s okay. Was the part saying how horrible it was to her necessary probably not.
The world is also full of so much negativity and darkness. This is why I will do all that I can to spread positivity and light.
This isn’t something I expect to be big at, it’s simply new creative outlet for me to connect with others. Through my own stories, and videos I hope to encourage others. So many times I watch videos and just feel like I don’t measure up to all the perfection. I’m not shaming anyone by any means for the type of content they share. I personally love real life stuff, messes, and knowing I’m not alone. So I hope others leave my channel finding comfort in knowing they aren’t alone.
The kids are ecstatic, and keep asking when they can do another video. I also understand there’s a lot of fuss around family vloggers. If the kids don’t want to be in a video they will not be forced. This is just a fun way for us to document life more.
Here’s my first video with the new intro included! This was a challenge for sure, but it was fun nonetheless. From start to finish, editing, and finding the right music I love everything about it. I hope you enjoy it!
What are your thoughts on YouTube, and what type of content do you enjoy watching?
After watching this, and knowing that I pushed past my fears I hope you too feel inspired to do that one thing that scares you!