I turned 30 last Wednesday and I decided to reflect and list thirty things I’ve learned over the years. I’m not going to lie I have been so down about saying goodbye to my twenties. They were filled with pain, heartache, growth, new life not just in giving birth 5 times, but new life for me as well. I’ve been stretched and pulled in many different ways. I walked a thousand different paths in trying to find myself.
I flailed and fought through college in a career path that wasn’t for me. I learned quickly in A&P after poking and prodding with a cadaver whose name I cannot remember — that the body had way too many body parts and muscles, and bones that I care to even begin to try and name. I realized that path just wasn’t for me. So I dropped out, cue the violin music and feeling like a failure. I couldn’t quite figure out what my “calling” was. “Oh you are still young it will come to you.” Continue reading “An Ode to My Twenties & 30 Things I’ve Learned Since Turning Thirty”
“Not right now kids mommy is really sick.” Has become normal in my house while going through hyperemesis. We have only been in our new house for a few months now and I feel like I’ve spent most of it sick on the couch or in bed. I can hear my husband playing with the kids while I’m in the other room just trying to not throw up. I won’t lie this time around was nowhere near has hard as my previous pregnancy. With that pregnancy I had to have iv infusions twice a week to stay hydrated and not get a picc line. Continue reading “Overcoming 9 Months With Hyperemesis Gravidarum”
This is a little embarrassing to admit but I forgot my age. The other day my mother reminded me of my age, and it hit me. This year I will actually be 29 and not 28. Even closer to 30 than I thought. Let me add, there’s nothing wrong with getting older it’s actually a blessing. But I thought by now I should have it all figured out you know. Right after high school I landed a job as a secretary in a hospital that I love. I also went straight to college, but add in some heartbreak, and I blew it. I spent a lot of time flailing and trying to keep my head above the water. I was hurting and so lost, and instead of leaning into the pain I ran from it. I consumed my days with long shifts at work, and eventually gave up on college. I had no clue what I wanted to do career wise. I thought by my mid twenties I’d have it all figured out.
I gave myself this silly little mental deadline on when you should have it all together and boy was I wrong.
Continue reading “When You Feel Like You Have Nothing To Show For”
How fitting that my very first blog post would be about healing and hospitality. Let me first start by saying that I broke my ankle on February 27th. It was an ordinary day of picking up my eldest daughter from preschool and grabbing lunch. I was walking down the steps at home carrying my son in his car seat. I missed a few steps and twisted my ankle. I felt it pop beneath my weight, but thankfully my little man was left unscathed. There I was in agony on the bottom step right beside the baby gate(the irony I know).
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